I could not help but notice the difference in the seniors after the retreat was over as they were touring the Monastery several days later. There was a look of such peace and joy in their eyes. Their eyes were happy, bright and clear and they looked so very vibrant-so very beautiful-like great beings of light. They radiated love, power, peace, compassion, and wisdom. There was an sense of inner knowing and great vitality about them. Rather than the broken down tired old people who had arrived on a bus the previous day they seemed like tribal elders-the ancient wise who had mastered life.
They had been given the opportunity to go where mortals never go. They had traveled mystically to the realm of death and beyond death. They had visited that great beyond and had conquered man's greatest fear. They now had the roadmap for death and beyond, and they now knew how to have a beautiful and joyous physical death.
They had personally discovered what was necessary to reach the seldom attained state of moksha. Many had received the profound divine mystical experience-the divine union-during the yajna as well. As a result they were now experiencing life to the fullest. It was like a rebirth for many of them. And it was so very beautiful to see them in that state. So often, even when surrounded by loved ones, modern man dies alone and in misery. This is an abberation and need not be so.
I had a deep desire to make the moksha yajna available to the seniors of North America. Daily I begged the monks, and later Sri Bhagavan personally, to grant me the training and preparation necessary to offer this yajna in the USA. They seemed somewhat surprised by the request at first, but soon agreed.
Later I took training and initaition to offer this. In the experience of death my life was transformed.
In the early years of this dharma of transformation and enlightenment we focused on the living as well as those who had passed but were still lingering. More of my time was spent working with spirits and helping them to go than conducting retreats for the living. It is a fascinating process.